Today I choose not to drink! So according to the book I’m following I should be feeling the buzz of my AF (alcohol free) existence… That’s not so much true. My witching hours are between 5 pm – 8 pm… If I can usually make it through those, I’m usually good enough to make it in bed and not be tempted but it’s hard as fu*k…. I don’t feel a buzz, at this point I just feel deprived and I know that’s the booze (or wolfie as Belle calls him – couldn’t do this without her) talking and not anything else. My doc says he’s not sure it’s simply a bad habit I’ve honed over the years or a true problem, either way it sucks and makes me feel like a total shit for allowing myself to get in this position. I guess I could have labeled this post self-pity… I read I need to keep a gratitude journal so I think I’m going to start a post and I can just go back and add to it each night as well… It can’t hurt to try!!!!