Remember being a kid and playing a game and someone would always yell inevitably, “Do-Over”…my brother did that a lot since he didn’t like losing. Well I’m here looking for my “Do-Over” because they don’t lie when they say one leads to more.. One does!
Great January for me, 30 days sober, whoop whoop. Enter pink cloud of complacency. Maybe I don’t have a problem, I’ve beat it, I’m good… not so much. One drink leads to many and I drank off and on the ENTIRE month as if I never stopped and you know what else… FEBRUARY officially sucked and I’m glad it’s gone. I stayed sick and chopped a big hunk out of my finger cooking (sober at that point)…Not to mention the constant negative voice in my head screaming at how worthless I am, that I can’t do anything right, I will never win this battle with the wine witch/wolfie/drink more voice…I officially don’t like that voice and do recall in January that the farther out I went from drinking the smaller and more far away that voice sounded…so the solution, back to the no drinking, not moderation for me, just no drinking period!
Day one… Sober!