I feel like the changing colors of my bruises are some sort of analogy for how my thoughts are trying to process this resolution of mine to say never again alcohol, never again. Bruises happen, temporary reminders of moments many would like to forget, especially as you watch it through a rainbow of red, blue, purple, black, green and yellow shades. But I can’t help but see this in some small way as a badge of honor, my rebirth temporary tattoo, a small reminder to help me get through the first few days of recovery.
I look at it quite frequently and remember this is why I don’t want to go back., why I can’t go back. I can’t do one glass as it never stops. I’m only 4 days in and am practicing tons of self care, reading, praying, blogging, cleaning, thinking etc. I know you all are out her for support. I’ve joined SmartRecovery, begin doing exercises, I have books but most of all right now I have the WILL to want to do this. To find out they why and the how. I am sticking to this quote for now, as it seems to wrap up everything I need so far!
“If you can quit for one day, you can quit for a lifetime!”