This weekend I’ve been all alone… My kids and husband have gone out of town for the weekend and won’t be back until late Sunday evening so I have a weekend to myself. I’m 17 days sober and part of me worried that I would find a reason to drink… It’s not like anyone will be here to see BUT… there is a BUT… But I don’t want to. I want to stay on this path I’m staying on and stay clean and clear-headed and sure of myself. I don’t want to go back to worrying who I said what to and what they might think. I don’t want that voice coming back in telling me I’m awful for doing it and should be ashamed of everything.. I want to be the new clean me and I plan on staying that way!!!
So far so good. I’ve read, blogged, stayed busy and avoided all temptations. I’m feeling solid today that I can still do this. To me this has been one of the first big tests, when they were gone before I would have used it as a reason to drink and drink and drink with no one the wiser…. Not this time!!!